Psycho
It's not that I'm ungrateful
The pain just blinds the joyful
Like sparks failing to render flame
I tend to forget my name
Do you ever fall asleep
Because you don't wanna be awake?
In a way, you are tired of the reality you face
tired of these tests
my resilience they trying to taste
Only six feet under do I feel like I can truly rest
Is this a coward's way out?
I lowkey want to find out.
But it doesn't stop the pain
You are only moving it
Forcing them to live in a world without you in it
A little selfish ain't it?
It felt like you were talking about what's going on with me :(
ReplyDeleteI hope it's not selfish they will understand.
I get you. Sometimes it feels it's the most selfless thing , relieving them of the burden that you think that you are putting on them. But that's not what they will remember or think of. It will be the times that you smiled the brightest and laughed the loudest that will shattered their hearts. I believe that if God woke you up this morning, it's because He didn't see that burden in you but the beautiful and deserving soul you are. Keep thriving , there's always a light after the tunnel
DeleteI want to be able to understand it but whenever I go to bed and the only thing that I want is to not wake up the next day, so whenever I woke up I felt like God is not listening cause if he is, He would make it easier for me. I don't want this feeling, the pain and everything behind.
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